YOU!

So I just completed a survey on SurveyMonkey about someone whom you have/are having a relationship with.. and it made me... mad, and sad... VERY pissed, and very upset. It reminded me of YOU. YOU know who you are. YOU. Yes, YOU. I spent YEARS with you. I gave my HEART, my EVERYTHING to you. I would have DIED for you; gone to HELL AND BACK for you... and still you have the nerve to hate ME; to BEAT ME; to HIT me in my HEART, to slap me in my FACE, plants bombs in my MIND. I was going to MARRY YOU; spend the rest of  my LIFE with YOU!

AH!

I don't even know where I was bloody going with this.

YOU know who you are.

YOU caused all of this hate and pain.

YOU did.

YOU!

Just Gotta' Let This Out

"All My Life", by K-Ci & JoJo, off of the 1997 'Love Always' album; track 11.




What a great song, eh..? I just find it a shame that up until recently, I haven't been able to come to terms with my past... yea', I know, it seems like I write a lot of these "inspirational" posts, but never hold up my end. This time around, though, I can't just simply not do that. It just doesn't work that way anymore. I can't make a mistake and have it forgiven that easily. I know that... I've ALWAYS known that... so why am I just NOW doing something about it..? I don't know...



Eh... maybe I'll post something better later... maybe not. All I know for now is that all I can really do is take it - Me define "it?" You define "it." - one step at a time, one day at a time, one hour at a time...



I mean, I got a soon-to-be family in less than four months, no job, emotional problems - Well, for now they're fine, but less than two years ago? Pfft... - and we're living on welfare and what the grace of God provides us with... so... IDK... I guess I can't complain too much. It's not like we've lost our house, had all our utilities shut off, and had to stay with others... oops.. too much information? Oh, well. What's the worst it can do? Hurt my non-existant credit-score? What won't these days? Now that I've succeeded in getting off topic for a couple minutes, I think it's time I wrap this thing up...









You know, normally, this is about the time I'm supposed to say something inspirational, or something like that, but... to be honest... I'm tired.



I think I'll go sleep for a while.

I Had A Dream

Yes, I said had. I'll probably get grounded off of my computer - not that it works, anyways - but those lousy freaking smokers have had me sick for the last two weeks. I've tried everything to figure out another idea, but I keep coming back to those disgusting people. Just so you know, if you're a smoker, you have given me the right to publically bash you, say whatever I feel like, the list goes on and on... and why can I do this? Oh, I don't know, how come you can smoke?

Bill of Rights

Interesting document, don't ya' think? It guarantees that, above all else, I'm allowed to openly: that means, - with an almost unlimited extent, further meaning: no limitations or liabilities, restrictions, or otherwise - to whomever I please - express my views. Whether they accept that or not, well, that's a completely different situation. However, I stand steadfast on my rightly reserved constitutional rights, and I choose to use them openly - and quite frequently, I might add. So, if someone is choosing not to accept my ideas, philosophies, religious views, etc... that's their problem. Worry about it on your own time, not mine. By the way, let me make this very clear, for one last time: I will never, ever, under any circumstance, revoke my constitutional, God-given rights... which include, but are not limited to: Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of Happiness. Let me delve into that Liberty one a little bit. The Bill of Rights includes lots of Liberties... including that of Free Speech. So, if I feel like saying something, you bet I'm going to say it! I know I keep repeating myself, just in different ways, but I'm covering everything I can think of. So, before I really digress, let me sum it up for you:



I'll give my opinion on whatever or whomever, whenever I choose. If you don't like it, you're more than welcome to delete/block me and have no further communication with me.



By the way, you can call me childish for writing this, but it's childish people to whom I thought I'd write this childish response.

Nobody But Jesus

Please, before I even get to my article, read this. It will change your way of thinking - and possibly even your life - forever.




Are you ready for me?

Before I start, I just wanna' get a few things off my chest.

You see, being in the business that I am in, looks like everything I do,

Everywhere I go, and everything I see,

Seems to be through some kind of magnifying glass.

While you're looking I suggest you take a good look'

And I hope you find just what it is you're looking for

Just like that song says - ain't nobody's business what I do

I remember when I was trying to be somebody, but I just didn't know nobody

But now

Now, ever since God has blessed me, it seems that things are going a little

bit different

I don't see nothing wrong with a little truth

You see, the good book says that the truth is the light,

Please, I think it's time to turn on your lights and see the truth

You don't know where I've been, you don't know where I'm going, you don't know what I do.

So before you go tyring to pass judgement on me, pass judgement on yourself,

Worry about yourself, and what yourself is doing, and where yourself is going,

And who yourself has been with.

That way, you,

You, you don't have to ever worry about nobody, but Jesus.



-Intro-The Sermon; R. Kelly: 1995



Now, let's move on. Hopefully that's a good foreword to what I'm about to say. Honestly, everyone has flaws. After tonight, I'm just going to come right out and say what I want and need to say. That way, I don't have to worry about nobody but Jesus.



Everyone has flaws, everyone has sress, everyone has their own problems. Hand in hand with that everyone has their own way of dealing with such things. Now, if someone goes and loses their temper, and, perhaps, says or does something that they don't mean, are you going to shun them for it? I belive that is what has happened [tonight].



I don't have the time or energy to go much further into this, so all I'm going to say for now is: Before you go judging someone, sit back and think about it. Is that person perfect? No. Are you perfect? No. So, if you're not perfect, and you're acussing someone of something - especially when you don't know the full details or events surrounding it - doesn't that make you pretty hypocritical? I don't know, maybe I'm just crazy.



Or maybe I'm right. Who knows?

O.K., so...

Basically, since everyone else is going off and actually doing something with their life, I decided to finally do something about mine. I'm done taking crap from people, and after last night, I'm going to straight out honest with everything from this point onward, which I should've done in the first place. Starting with church.



Don't get me wrong. I love church, but I don't think it's necessary. As all these preachers will tell you,"Jesus is, essentially, the church." Um.. duh. So, wouldn't it make sense then, that we, as sons and daughters of Abraham, know that? My point being, church isn't necessary. Sure it's a place where we can all come together and share a common view, but that's the same for school, work, and a lot of other places. If you really want to know my honest opinion: I could never go to church again, and I know I'd be better off than some of the people that have been sitting there for the last fourty years, though I'm not mentioning any names.



Also, on the subject of church: judgement. Do you really want to know a sure way to get blocked out of heaven? Start judging people. I know a lot of people who do this. In fact, pretty much everyone. So, I mean, it's kinda' hard not to, right? Wrong. Jesus never judged a single person. There were people he talked to that killed people for a living, and he didn't judge them. He might not have approved of what they were doing, but he didn't judge them in the slightest. Why can't we do that? I don't. In fact, you can call me a liar all day long, but if you want to know the truth, I don't judge, hate, or even dislike anyone. Since I've started going to church, I just simply don't want to. So, I don't.



Moving on before I bore you do death, I'm going to talk about being forced, because I mentioned just simply not judging. I've posted a whole rant about this before, so I'll make it short. You don't have to do anything. You choose to. If you want to know more about that principle, ask me, or, better yet, check the Bible, since certain members of the church feel it's necessary to hide behind it.



Which brings me to my next point, going slightly back to church. The Bible. The Bible is a book, just like any other book. People idolize the Bible. Why? Doesn't it say in that very same book that people are to idolize nothing else but God? By the way, I can't wait for people from churches to read this. I hope they spit out what they're drinking when they do. I will openly share my opinion, and if you don't like it, simple click the back button on your browser, and never read it again. If you'd like to act childish and take it a step further, go ahead and block me. I dare you. In fact, if you can't simply read someone elses opinion without getting all huffy puffy about it, I'll block you.



Next on the list is religious tolerance. This is a biggy for "religious people." Like a pastor has said before,"There are 'religious people,' and then there 'Christians.'" If you're a religious person, by all means, be one. If you're a Christian, be one. Don't be a religious person trying to act Christian. You're not, and you'll only wind up further behind than serial killers. Anyways, my point for this is: You need to accept other beliefs, and if you can't, get some help. Honestly, if you're that worried about another religion taking members from your church, then you need some work. I'm not saying I'm perfect, but there's many issues more important than whether or not I go to your church. Speaking of which, if you ever. Ever. Tell me that you can't be around because of who I am, or what I believe, or what I do, then, right then, you have just gone straight to Hell, because if there is nothing else Jesus wanted to do while he was on Earth, it was to make people respect each other, and actually be able to talk to each other without getting upset because of differing beliefs.



Now, for the very few people still reading. I have many more things to talk about, so, please, if you'd like to hear a little more, Subscribe to my blog. If you actually think you can handle a differing belief, come talk to me. In fact, call me, we'll go out for pizza. If you can learn to accept God, stop judging people, actually worry about something important once in a while, and possibly even use the common courtesy bestowed upon each of us when we were born, then God bless you, and please, share some of these views. For those of you who do, and you scare some people into not talking to you, then know that you're doing exactly what God wanted you to. Want to know why? They're scared. They know you're right, and they don't want to admit that, so they hide. So, be different, shout about it, call people, write e-mails. Be bold, don't be afraid to share your view about God. It's what He wants us to do. I know because He told me.



God bless us all,

Dennis Dodd

"Forced" Rant

Okay, people. I think it's time you stopped saying this. People, or, anything in general, cannot "force" or "make" you do anything. Life is full of choices. You hear that alot. But you do not realize the true meaning of this until you find out that every little thing that you do, even reading this right now, is a choice. You have billions of choices to make in your lifetime. For example: You work at a bank. Someone walks in with a mask on, armed with the shotgun, and demands money from you, the only teller (hey, it's 2nd shift!) You have a couple of options. You can:


1) Duck under the counter and hope he doesn't hop over it.

2) Pray to the LORD that there's a security guard on duty.

3) Pull out your gaat and blast his sorry a**!

Now.. which one would choose?

So, now, when someone says that they were "forced" to do something, please go right ahead and tell them they are full of crap. And then, of course, you can watch and laugh as they stare at you thinking,"WTF?" Just thought I'd clear that up. :)

"Sad" Rant

I've just gotta' say... I love all of my friends and family. I really do. Hopefully they love me, too. People think I'm crazy because I would die for my friends and family; how bout' you? Wouldn't you die for your mother, your father? If they were dying with cancer, wouldn't you want to take their place; let them live, let them grow and be 100. *Chuckles* NOW who's crazy?... Just think about it for a minute. Think about how "short" life really is. In the blink of an eye, it can pass you by. I'm 14; where did the years go?... Like everyone else, I also wish I could go back; change all of the things I did wrong. But no one is perfect. So, I accept the facts: I'm not very popular, people will always make fun of me, I'm poor, but at the same time rich. I will probably die at the age of 70 from a heart attack. I will never be a a millionaire. Simple facts, right? They can change a lifetime. Think about that, as you read this. What could you be doing? You could be outside, enjoying yourself. Now, you may be outside. Heck, you could be in your front lawn right now on your labtop! Get up, and go do something. Don't be like me. Don't waste 14 years of your life. You could be the most famous person in the world. But if you haven't done anything, no contributions to society, no donations, you are just like the penniless bums on corners. But, hey, what do I know?